Kr5istofer's Thoughts

I can't listen to these songs anymore, it goes straight through me and puts a needle in my heart. It's so painful to say goodbye, I didn't think it was going to be this hard. I love so much, so much bigger than my heart can take. I'm breaking. I cried today, I had to go to the bathroom to hide it. Wow that statement promotes masculinity. But serious, I set my iPod to random, and everything that played hurt, or had a draining affect on me. Sigur Ros - Untitled 6, Taking Back Sunday - New American Classic, Ben Folds - The Luckiest, Smashing Pumpkins - Drown, Our Lady Peace - 4AM. I can't escape even if I leave. Everything will follow me, and I'll still be haunted by the scars in on my heart, and new ones keep forming everyday. Is that all I am, a faint memory or a set of misplaced feelings? What would you think of me now, so lucky, so strong, so proud? I have always thought that was a confident line, but now I know it's sarcasm. I'm not even me.