***
She calls me from the cold.
Just when I was low, feeling short of stable.
And all that she intends.
And all she keeps inside, isn't on the label.
She says she's ashamed.
And can she take me for awhile.
And cannot be a friend, we'll forget the past.
But maybe I'm not able.
And I break at the bend.
We're here and now, but will we ever be again.
'Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade
Away again.
She dreams a champagne dream.
Strawberry surprise, pink linen and white paper
Lavender and cream.
Fields of butterflies, reality escapes her.
She says that love is for fools who fall behind.
And I'm somewhere in between.
I never really know,
A killer from a savior.
'Til I break at the bend
It's too far away for me to hold
It's too far away...
Guess I'll let it go.
But you weren't honest
Now get in the ground
You choked off the short list of favors
But if you really loved me
You would have endured my will
Well if you're just, as I presumed
A whore in sheep's clothing
Fucking up all i do
The end, if so here we stop,
Then never again will you see
This in your life
Hang on to the glory at my right hand
Here lay to rest is a love ever long
With truth on the shores of confession
You seem to take privilege to all of these souls.
You stormed off to scar the armada
Like Jesus played letter
I'll drill through your hands
The stone for the curse you have blamed me
With love and devotion I'll die as you sleep
But if you could just write me out
To never mis-wonder her happy will I become
Be true that this is no option
So with it condemn you demon raiding in love.
Hang on to the glory at my right hand
Here lay to rest is a love ever long
With truth on the shores of confession
You seem to take privilege to all of these souls.
One last kiss for you
One more wish to you
Please make up your mind girl
I'd do anything for you
One last kiss for you
One more wish to you
Please make up your mind girl
Before I hope you die
I'm reading Harry Potter right now, and someone has already spoiled the ending for me. I'm not too pissed off about that. I still enjoy reading the book. I have about 9 more chapters to go. The recording has pretty much halted. Rex the guy who is engineering our CD is busy with work, and it is hard to find time for us all to get together. While it has halted what we have done so far sounds brilliant! I can't wait for it to be done. I had an odd experience last night. I went to buy a new CD, and I couldn't find one worth buying to me. So I bought some movies. I think I'm content with what I have now. Our Lady Peace will have a new album out soon, and I plan on getting it, but I think that modern music isn't pleasing to me anymore. My friend Lee called me the other day and said, "if you don't do something with your music, I will kick you ass. You're shit is too good to go unnoticed." That felt good, maybe I could be on the next wave of popular rock. Maybe my music is good, maybe my dream is possible. I'm feeling generally better too, while my friends are still doing other things, I think I have found a balance with most of them. I don't feel so alone as far as friends go. My bishop called the other day and said that he was told to call me. He is so cool. I need to be a lot more in tune with my spirituality. I need to start reading my scriptures more, and I need to open up to God more. Anyway, that is another post all together. I'm noticing a lot about the opposite sex lately. How they treat me when I'm around has been a lot better, maybe because I'm less defensive lately. People are starting conversations with me, and have a genuine interest in who I am. This is cool... Really cool! I need to have my suit pressed so maybe I can go to the Men's Warehouse and finally have courage enough to ask that girl out that was very flirtatious with me when I bought it. Holy crap that is scary! I also have decided to actually work on the goals that I have for myself and not wait for them to happen. They never will if I don't do it. A lot is going to change for me, but I know that it is for the better.... Well now that I have talked in circles I'll be done now.
Your Linguistic Profile: |
60% General American English |
20% Yankee |
10% Dixie |
10% Upper Midwestern |
0% Midwestern |
Man I must really suck if I am 10% Dixie. I mean crap! I'm not from the south!
I don't think I published this song before...
2 Comments Published by Kr5is on Saturday, July 16, 2005 at 7:35 PM....Nothing seems to satisfy...
...I don't know why I was thinking it, but it has a lot of meaning to me right now. What will make me satisfied? At what point and to what end will I be okay being me?
You can be on my cool list if you tell me what the song is without "googleing" it.
***
Something has to change.
Un-deniable dilemma.
Boredom’s not a burden
Anyone should bear.
Constant over stimulation numbs me
But I wouldn’t want you
Any other way.
Just, not enough.
I need more.
Nothing seems to satisfy.
I said, I don’t want it.
I just need it.
To breathe, to feel, to know I’m alive.
Finger deep within the borderline.
Show me that you love me and that we belong together.
Relax, turn around and take my hand.
I can help you change
Tired moments into pleasure.
Say the word and we’ll be
Well upon our way.
Blend and balance
Pain and comfort
Deep within you
Till you will not want me any other way.
But, it’s not enough.
I need more.
Nothing seems to satisfy.
I said, I don’t want it.
I just need it.
To breathe, to feel, to know I’m alive.
Knuckle deep inside the borderline.
This may hurt a little but it’s something you’ll get used to.
Relax. slip away.
Something kinda sad about
The way that things have come to be.
Desensitized to everything.
What became of subtlety?
How can it mean anything to me
If I really don’t feel anything at all?
I’ll keep digging till,
I feel something.
Elbow deep inside the borderline.
Show me that you love me and that we belong together.
Shoulder deep within the borderline.
Relax. turn around and take my hand.
So I took this sort of personality test that was on Jenna's blog, and here are the results. This is so accurate that it is scary...
You can take it too.
Here are my results:
You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realization of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.
You want what you want and you need all that you want and, as they say in the movies, you are the sort of individual that 'By hook or by crook' you will, by fair means or foul, endeavor to get what you are looking for.
Many people will consider you egotistical and full of your own self importance. On the surface you could well give this impression and perhaps the reason for this complacent attitude is because at times you indeed have that 'short fuse' and are quick to take offense.
You are pretending that the situation around you doesn't matter, but the effort of trying to conceal your emotions and anxieties is resulting in untold stress. The existing situation is disagreeable. You feel unwanted and lonely and you would really like to associate with someone whose ideals are as high as your own. You want to be above the standard of mediocrity and this need to be needed and that need to need has almost become an obsession. You are trying to magnify the need into a compelling urge. You would really like to tell the world how great you are but no, you are holding back because you feel that your peers may treat you with contempt. This is a great pity because you have in fact a unique quality of character, but the continual restraint that you impose on yourself makes you suppress this need for others and you pretend you don't really care. You treat those who criticize you with contempt. However, to be honest, beneath this assumption of indifference you really long for the approval and esteem of others.
You would like to be respected and valued for yourself and this can only be achieved from within a close and harmonious relationship.
Also if you have any suggestions about what I could put on my blog let me know! I think this new look fits me better.
I'll post again real soon.