Kr5istofer's Thoughts

I'm walking away, It's not the same as running.

I can't fake who I am anymore. I'm getting angry all the time, and that is not who I was when I was cool to the people around me. Why does nobody trust me? What have I don't to deserve the alination?

I can't be who I really am though. It will remove everything I do love in my life, but then again I think that is happening no matter how I act or feel. I'm happy, but I'm frustrated. Frustrated that everything I touch falls apart. Everything I cherrish I ruin, and all I can do is cry, but I can't do that either. Why am I numb where I need not to be, and over emotional where I shouldn't be. I don't think I am who my friends think I am. What sort of mask did I put on for them, and more importantly which one? I wear different masks around different friends, and I have been lost in my many identitys. I can't see the real me, I catch glimpses of it when I'm with different people, but it is never in plain view. I can't write music because everything I do come up with sounds like I can't make a decision. I hate that. I'm complaining I know, that is something I'm good at. This is why I'm always set aside as a friend instead of a lover. Trust me I know...