I'm not sad, and I'm not depressed, and I'm not "being emo", I'm just lazy and don't really feel anything right now. So that is why I haven't written anything meaningful for a while.
There is a new song that I have been listening to that is totally wicked. I would play it for you but lil' Kr5is the iPod crashed again and I don't have the songs anywhere else.
Steve gave me a copy of the song this weekend, and I recommend it. Check out Spill Canvas if you have a chance!
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"Self-Conclusion"
Fade in, start the scene
Enter beautiful girl
But things are not what they seem
As we stand at the edge of the world
"Excuse me, sir,
But I have plans to die tonight
Oh, and you are directly in my way
And I bet you're gonna say it's not right"
My reply:
"Excuse me, miss
But do you have the slightest clue
Of exactly what you just said to me
And exactly who you're talking to?"
She said, "I don't care, you don't even know me"
I said, "I know but I'd like to change that soon, hopefully"
Yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets
"You make it sound so easy to be alive
But tell me, how am I supposed to seize this day
When everything inside me has died?"
My reply:
"Trust me, girl
I know your legs are pleading to leap
But I offer you this easy choice-
Instead of dying, living with me"
She said, "Are you crazy? You don't even know me."
I said, "I know, but I'd like to change that soon hopefully"
Yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets
I would be lying if I said that things would never get rough
And all this cliche motivation, it could never be enough
I could stand here all night trying to convince you
But what good would that do?
My offer stands, and you must choose
"All right, you win, but I only give you one night
To prove yourself to be better than my attempt at flight
I swear to god if you hurt me I will leap
I will toss myself from these very cliffs
And you'll never see it coming"
"Settle, precious, I know what you're going through
Just ten minutes before you got here I was going to jump too"
Yeah we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets
There is a new song that I have been listening to that is totally wicked. I would play it for you but lil' Kr5is the iPod crashed again and I don't have the songs anywhere else.
Steve gave me a copy of the song this weekend, and I recommend it. Check out Spill Canvas if you have a chance!
5
***
"Self-Conclusion"
Fade in, start the scene
Enter beautiful girl
But things are not what they seem
As we stand at the edge of the world
"Excuse me, sir,
But I have plans to die tonight
Oh, and you are directly in my way
And I bet you're gonna say it's not right"
My reply:
"Excuse me, miss
But do you have the slightest clue
Of exactly what you just said to me
And exactly who you're talking to?"
She said, "I don't care, you don't even know me"
I said, "I know but I'd like to change that soon, hopefully"
Yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets
"You make it sound so easy to be alive
But tell me, how am I supposed to seize this day
When everything inside me has died?"
My reply:
"Trust me, girl
I know your legs are pleading to leap
But I offer you this easy choice-
Instead of dying, living with me"
She said, "Are you crazy? You don't even know me."
I said, "I know, but I'd like to change that soon hopefully"
Yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets
I would be lying if I said that things would never get rough
And all this cliche motivation, it could never be enough
I could stand here all night trying to convince you
But what good would that do?
My offer stands, and you must choose
"All right, you win, but I only give you one night
To prove yourself to be better than my attempt at flight
I swear to god if you hurt me I will leap
I will toss myself from these very cliffs
And you'll never see it coming"
"Settle, precious, I know what you're going through
Just ten minutes before you got here I was going to jump too"
Yeah we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets
Like The Stone Face of Your Lover, Just Before She Says Goodbye
1 Comments Published by Kr5is on Tuesday, September 26, 2006 at 5:05 PM.
I'm trying to put things back in place and perspective.
I can't really write, I don't have the energy or the desire to share how I feel lately.
Sorry...
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I can't really write, I don't have the energy or the desire to share how I feel lately.
Sorry...
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Car accidents suck.
My neck hurts.
My neck hurts.
It's time for another trip to the good ol' Utah.
I have a lot of concerns about the trip and I have a lot of mixed feelings about some of the people I will be seeing, but I don't want to have to pick one friend over another anymore.
I have always tried to make people comfortable by not talking about certain friends while I was around them, but I am really done with that now.
If you girls can't play nice then you can't play with me. Actually that is really just for one girl.
I have a lot of concerns about the trip and I have a lot of mixed feelings about some of the people I will be seeing, but I don't want to have to pick one friend over another anymore.
I have always tried to make people comfortable by not talking about certain friends while I was around them, but I am really done with that now.
If you girls can't play nice then you can't play with me. Actually that is really just for one girl.
More evidence that our politician's* hands are in the pockets of the RIAA and MPAA.
Here is the proof.
This article isn't really about piracy or copyright laws, but about the Apple DRM software. I can't stand buying music legit anymore for two reasons.
1) Sony Root Kit
These organizations need to be disbanded.
*Spin, is there supposed to be an apostrophe?
Here is the proof.
This article isn't really about piracy or copyright laws, but about the Apple DRM software. I can't stand buying music legit anymore for two reasons.
1) Sony Root Kit
- Sony and other music publishers are constantly trying to develop ways to prevent consumers (people that pay for their music) from being able to put the songs they bought from a store on their personal audio devices. Now the only way to get music on to a personal audio device is to rip it to your computer's music library first. Sony's Root Kit was the software that prevented all Sony published CD's from being successfully ripped to your computer. All in the name of stopping piracy. As it turned out the code used to create the software was allegedly pirated, and the software was listed as a spyware. Every effort I made to remove the software ended in failure. Even Sony's sure fire removal tool didn't remove the software, and it would only work with Internet Explorer. So not only does the software not get removed, but you have to use IE which will make you more vulnerable to spyware. Good going Sony. Really all this form of "protection" did was piss off the customers the industry wants to keep.
- I have only bought songs from Apple, but I'm sure the other online distributors are the same. When you purchase a song from the Apple iTunes Store it automatically downloads the song and adds it to your library. The song is encoded using AAC and is 128kbps. That sort of compression ruins song quality and destroys the integrity of the mid range and high frequencies.
- Revise the copyright laws and change them to protect the owner and (new concept here) the consumer.
- Offer a choice of quality after purchasing a song, even an un-encoded track.
- What you do with the song after you buy it should not be the concern of the owner unless you are illegally distributing it or altering it.
These organizations need to be disbanded.
*Spin, is there supposed to be an apostrophe?
Well, I Should Let You Know...
2 Comments Published by Kr5is on Wednesday, September 13, 2006 at 1:28 PM.
I thought I should let you know that I will be taking another trip to Utah next weekend. I will be driving again, and this trip will be brief, but I wanted to give my Utah readers a heads up that I will be there. I will be driving out with my friend James who wants to go see my sister, but the reason for me to go is so I can continue my tradition of going to the X96 Big Ass Show. I haven't missed a show since 1999. I plan to go to every B.A.Sh. that they have until my family pulls the life support plug. This year's schedule looks interesting.
Yellowcard
Hawthorne Heights
Soul Asylum
Hoobastank
Alien Ant Farm
Rock Kills Kid
Head Automatica
She Wants Revenge
Blue October
Broke
Lostprophets
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Just like Spin, I have marked the bands I plan to see with Red. I haven't seen a lot of these bands, some of them are familiar. Broke's lead singer is a kid I used to chat with at local shows. I sat in on some recording sessions with a band that he was producing an album for. None of the bands playing this year are bands I have a lot of interest in, but I'm sure I'll enjoy the show. I think it will be hard to top the Our Lady Peace performance from last year's Big Ass Show as far as enjoyment by Kr5is goes. OLP have played the show 3 times, I think that is still the Big Ass Show record. I could be wrong. My favorite memory of the Big Ass Show is when I was backstage at the interview table. Davey Havok from AFI was wearing a red and black see-through mesh shirt with black electrical tape over his nipples. He was real nice, and took a deep interest in my friend Nate. I laughed for a good while.
Anyway, So I will be in town for the show. My cousin said he plans to drive down from BYU Idaho to go and he also said that Taking Back Sunday is playing that night. I can't confirm that but if they are... oh baby... I won't be seeing anyone unless they go to the B.A.Sh. with me.
Yellowcard
Hawthorne Heights
Soul Asylum
Hoobastank
Alien Ant Farm
Rock Kills Kid
Head Automatica
She Wants Revenge
Blue October
Broke
Lostprophets
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Just like Spin, I have marked the bands I plan to see with Red. I haven't seen a lot of these bands, some of them are familiar. Broke's lead singer is a kid I used to chat with at local shows. I sat in on some recording sessions with a band that he was producing an album for. None of the bands playing this year are bands I have a lot of interest in, but I'm sure I'll enjoy the show. I think it will be hard to top the Our Lady Peace performance from last year's Big Ass Show as far as enjoyment by Kr5is goes. OLP have played the show 3 times, I think that is still the Big Ass Show record. I could be wrong. My favorite memory of the Big Ass Show is when I was backstage at the interview table. Davey Havok from AFI was wearing a red and black see-through mesh shirt with black electrical tape over his nipples. He was real nice, and took a deep interest in my friend Nate. I laughed for a good while.
Anyway, So I will be in town for the show. My cousin said he plans to drive down from BYU Idaho to go and he also said that Taking Back Sunday is playing that night. I can't confirm that but if they are... oh baby... I won't be seeing anyone unless they go to the B.A.Sh. with me.
This only happens when I'm about to reach some sort of ledge that I can stand on. It seems to give away and then I'm left clinging to a root sticking out of the cliff that will inevitably be insufficient to support me. It then takes another year to climb back and make it a little further.
But on different note there is another new song on the blog.
But on different note there is another new song on the blog.
This post is mostly for my friends at Dentrix.
I'm installing Dentrix G2 Beta (at least I think it's beta, has it been released?) in an office today with about 30 workstations. If you haven't seen slow before I bet today will be the day. So Martin if you hear about an Arbor Dental in Broomfield CO, you can call me as a contact.
I'm gonna die!
I'm installing Dentrix G2 Beta (at least I think it's beta, has it been released?) in an office today with about 30 workstations. If you haven't seen slow before I bet today will be the day. So Martin if you hear about an Arbor Dental in Broomfield CO, you can call me as a contact.
I'm gonna die!
So I need to update apparently. Let's see, what have I done lately?...
...nothing...
It has been boring here lately. All I do is work on computers which is fun, but I can't do it on the weekends or in the evenings. I do it all day then all night??? Not a chance so I have been taking a break from my geekness. However I do have to tell you about my geekness for just a sec. Curtis recommended a program called Media Portal. It's basically a program designed to run and manage all your songs and movies. This one happens to be an open source program, which means that if I ever decide to become really geeky I can add and change the program as desired. Like for instance, I want the album art from the MP3 file to display in the window that the Visualization stuff goes. I don't usually like watching that anyway, and I would much rather see the art work. I just need to get off my ass and re-learn all the C++ I learned in high school. I don't even know if that is what they are writing in anymore. Aside from being open source the program has a few cool features like Weather and Radio. I can setup a zip code and it will display the 5 day forecast for any city. I have Parker CO, Orem, and Buenos Aries weather available to me whenever I feel like laughing at the Argentine people. On the Radio thing it is sweet. I set it up to stream X96 to my TV so I can still listen to what is happening in the music scene back in Utah. I have been encoding all my movies to DivX in my spare time so I can house them all on that computer. I spent most my day on Saturday encoding Rescue Me Season 2. Good show I might add. I need to get Nip/Tuck now and then I'll be done with my FX TV shows. But I have a feeling that Cartoon Network shows will keep me busy for a while.
Okay done with the geeking.
I had my last visit with my councilor last week. I think It helped me not to feel hopeless, so I'm not really depressed anymore. I haven't been to church since the bishop said that he thinks I'm ready to end my probation. That's a long story and I don't feel like telling you if you don't know it. Sorry. But I hope that I can find the motivation to go to church regularly so I can be free of this burden. Plus maybe go to the Temple for my birthday.
I haven't been able to write music lately, I think I'm trying too hard. I just need to sit back and let it flow like I used to. I want so bad to be successful in the since where I feel like my songs are good. I don't have to have other people tell me, but I need to feel it myself. I wrote a riff last night that was awesome, but I don't know where to go with it. I can do brilliant things with other peoples songs, but not my own. I think I'll piss off my neighbors tonight and break out my electric guitar.
My hair is longer then it has been in 10 years. The last time my hair was this long my dad shaved my head for being an asshole. It was cool, and it didn't work because I liked it and kept my hair short. I have tried a few times before to grow my hair long in the last year or so but gave up all the time during the ugly phase. So now I decided I don't have anyone to impress so I will just let it go through the ugly phase and hit the long and hot phase. I'm almost there, just 2 more weeks. I decided that I looked gay (literally) with long hair and a trimmed goatee, so I shaved it off last night. It was sort of a 'have to' situation though. I have been thinking about it for a long time, and I think it will be good motivation to continue working out so I can get rid of my double chin. However last night as I was shaving normally I slipped with the trimmer and... sad day... had to get rid of it. It feels so weird when the wind blows and I can feel it on my chin. I think I continue shaving it now, but we'll see how I like the long hair. Oooo, just had a thought... maybe I can dye my hair now? Would Black be bad?
...nothing...
It has been boring here lately. All I do is work on computers which is fun, but I can't do it on the weekends or in the evenings. I do it all day then all night??? Not a chance so I have been taking a break from my geekness. However I do have to tell you about my geekness for just a sec. Curtis recommended a program called Media Portal. It's basically a program designed to run and manage all your songs and movies. This one happens to be an open source program, which means that if I ever decide to become really geeky I can add and change the program as desired. Like for instance, I want the album art from the MP3 file to display in the window that the Visualization stuff goes. I don't usually like watching that anyway, and I would much rather see the art work. I just need to get off my ass and re-learn all the C++ I learned in high school. I don't even know if that is what they are writing in anymore. Aside from being open source the program has a few cool features like Weather and Radio. I can setup a zip code and it will display the 5 day forecast for any city. I have Parker CO, Orem, and Buenos Aries weather available to me whenever I feel like laughing at the Argentine people. On the Radio thing it is sweet. I set it up to stream X96 to my TV so I can still listen to what is happening in the music scene back in Utah. I have been encoding all my movies to DivX in my spare time so I can house them all on that computer. I spent most my day on Saturday encoding Rescue Me Season 2. Good show I might add. I need to get Nip/Tuck now and then I'll be done with my FX TV shows. But I have a feeling that Cartoon Network shows will keep me busy for a while.
Okay done with the geeking.
I had my last visit with my councilor last week. I think It helped me not to feel hopeless, so I'm not really depressed anymore. I haven't been to church since the bishop said that he thinks I'm ready to end my probation. That's a long story and I don't feel like telling you if you don't know it. Sorry. But I hope that I can find the motivation to go to church regularly so I can be free of this burden. Plus maybe go to the Temple for my birthday.
I haven't been able to write music lately, I think I'm trying too hard. I just need to sit back and let it flow like I used to. I want so bad to be successful in the since where I feel like my songs are good. I don't have to have other people tell me, but I need to feel it myself. I wrote a riff last night that was awesome, but I don't know where to go with it. I can do brilliant things with other peoples songs, but not my own. I think I'll piss off my neighbors tonight and break out my electric guitar.
My hair is longer then it has been in 10 years. The last time my hair was this long my dad shaved my head for being an asshole. It was cool, and it didn't work because I liked it and kept my hair short. I have tried a few times before to grow my hair long in the last year or so but gave up all the time during the ugly phase. So now I decided I don't have anyone to impress so I will just let it go through the ugly phase and hit the long and hot phase. I'm almost there, just 2 more weeks. I decided that I looked gay (literally) with long hair and a trimmed goatee, so I shaved it off last night. It was sort of a 'have to' situation though. I have been thinking about it for a long time, and I think it will be good motivation to continue working out so I can get rid of my double chin. However last night as I was shaving normally I slipped with the trimmer and... sad day... had to get rid of it. It feels so weird when the wind blows and I can feel it on my chin. I think I continue shaving it now, but we'll see how I like the long hair. Oooo, just had a thought... maybe I can dye my hair now? Would Black be bad?
