Good morning, The Worm, Your Honour,
The Crown will plainly show,
The prisoner who now stands before you,
Was caught red-handed showing feelings.
Showing feelings of an almost human nature.
This will not do.
I always said he'd come to no good,
In the end, Your Honour.
If they'd let me have my way,
I could have flayed him into shape.
But my hands were tied.
The bleeding hearts and artists,
Let him get away with murder.
Let me hammer him today.
You little shit, you're in it now.
I hope they throw away the key.
You should've talked to me more often than you did.
But no! You had to go your own way.
Have you broken any homes up lately?
Just five minutes, Worm, Your Honour,
Him and me alone.
The evidence before the court is incontravertible.
There's no need for the jury to retire.
In all my years of judging I have never heard before,
Of someone more deserving of the full penalty of the law.
The way you made them suffer,
Your exquisite wife and mother,
Fills me with the urge to deficate! -- No, Judge, the jury!
Since, my friend, you have revealed your deepest fear,
I sentence you to be exposed before your peers.
Tear down the wall!
***
I saw this movie maybe 3 years ago, but I have listened to the album most of my life. Pink Floyd's social comentary on someone going insane compares a lot to me and the people around me. I don't know why I was remided of this song, but a line stuck out at me while I was working today.
"I sentence you to be exposed before your peers."
What a torture. I can't imagin having all my walls torn down and feeling naked for everyone to see. I was reading Jenna's blog today, and was reminded of a conversation we had last night. Pink Floyd goes on to say:
***
All alone, or in twos,
The ones who really know you,
Walk up and down outside the wall.
Some hand in hand,
Some gather together in bands,
The bleeding hearts and artists,
Make their stand.
And when they've given you their all,
Some stagger and fall.
After all it's not easy,
Banging your heart against some mad bugger's wall.
***
Don't be afraid...
I have let so many people inside my wall that it scares me, but I found that the people I do let in are the people that "give it their all". I may not be the best cantidate for your walls, but I know I am safe and loved when you are inside my wall...
The Crown will plainly show,
The prisoner who now stands before you,
Was caught red-handed showing feelings.
Showing feelings of an almost human nature.
This will not do.
I always said he'd come to no good,
In the end, Your Honour.
If they'd let me have my way,
I could have flayed him into shape.
But my hands were tied.
The bleeding hearts and artists,
Let him get away with murder.
Let me hammer him today.
You little shit, you're in it now.
I hope they throw away the key.
You should've talked to me more often than you did.
But no! You had to go your own way.
Have you broken any homes up lately?
Just five minutes, Worm, Your Honour,
Him and me alone.
The evidence before the court is incontravertible.
There's no need for the jury to retire.
In all my years of judging I have never heard before,
Of someone more deserving of the full penalty of the law.
The way you made them suffer,
Your exquisite wife and mother,
Fills me with the urge to deficate! -- No, Judge, the jury!
Since, my friend, you have revealed your deepest fear,
I sentence you to be exposed before your peers.
Tear down the wall!
***
I saw this movie maybe 3 years ago, but I have listened to the album most of my life. Pink Floyd's social comentary on someone going insane compares a lot to me and the people around me. I don't know why I was remided of this song, but a line stuck out at me while I was working today.
"I sentence you to be exposed before your peers."
What a torture. I can't imagin having all my walls torn down and feeling naked for everyone to see. I was reading Jenna's blog today, and was reminded of a conversation we had last night. Pink Floyd goes on to say:
***
All alone, or in twos,
The ones who really know you,
Walk up and down outside the wall.
Some hand in hand,
Some gather together in bands,
The bleeding hearts and artists,
Make their stand.
And when they've given you their all,
Some stagger and fall.
After all it's not easy,
Banging your heart against some mad bugger's wall.
***
Don't be afraid...
I have let so many people inside my wall that it scares me, but I found that the people I do let in are the people that "give it their all". I may not be the best cantidate for your walls, but I know I am safe and loved when you are inside my wall...
It has been about week since anything new was posted on here, so here is an update. This last week was good but stressful. I still owe my dad $230 from all the repairs to my vehicle that he helped me with. I have been trying to budget myself, but failed over the week and spent about $100 more than I should have. On what I'm not sure. I'm going to try and fix that though, by not spending monet this week!!!! I leave for Colorado on Thursday afternoon, and I am really looking forward to it. I can't wait to see my aunts and uncles this weekend. I have not seen them since my Grandma died. I wish I was still close to that side of my family. They are so cool, but they never really liked my family. We were the "Mormons", they loved my mom, but the rest of us were extra baggage that came a long with it. I know my grandparents did't think that, but some of my aunts do. I love my Uncle Craig and Aunt Jody, they are some people who totally loved us and always will, go figure that they are the only other family that has children in this extended family. I remember playing football with my uncle Craig, he and I are very a like. He has a band too, and wants to hear mine. I'm going to bring a copy of some of our music with me so I can sort of show him. We videotaped our last show, and I'm going to try and get a copy to bring. I think it will be fun. I saw my family for a few hours yesterday it was nice. I have been teaching my little brothers and Sister to play Halo 2. I am going to bring my XBox with me so we can play on the way. I hope it will make the long trip more bearible. I will also be driving for a while which helps my bordom situatoin.
This last weekend I went to a condo with Jenna and Jeff. I had so much fun being away for a few days. I played some games, lost a poker game to Jenna, played some Halo and watched one of my favorite Family Guy episodes, and found it very profane to my surprise. I guess now that I am becoming more concious of the media I watch or listen to I am more offended by it's content. I'm growing up... As a result of losing the poker game to Jenna I have to kiss someone new in the next month, or I will owe her $50. This is sort of a catch 22 situation for me, seeing as the only girl I am close enough with to actually kiss is Jenna, but whatev. So here begins my attempt to be a mouth slut again. *sigh* I think I can find sometone in that time. I thought I was done with being a man-whore.
I saw a really good film on Saturday as well. "Be Cool". It was really "cool"! I don't think I have been that entertained by a movie since "Death to Smoochy". Go figure that they are made by the same people. All in all life is really good. I can't wait to get back from Colorado though. This is sort of a question that I think about a lot, do you ever have an event happening that is so big that you can't see what is going to happen after that? I know when I get back I'm going to be plaing with my band, working on buying a new guitar, and getting into school, but I don't have a huge event to look forward to. I really want to go to Vegas soon, maybe I can start planning that and have something to look forward to.
So to catch you up on the current situatoins in my life here is a list of people that mean a lot to me, and an explination about how they are involved with me.
Rich - Well he is still getting married, I am excited for him, even though I don't know how to feel about his Fiance right now. She has done some things to make me queston her intentions in life. I hope Rich understands her and is really ready. I don't see him anymore, maybe for a few min at work, but that is it.
Bryan - I think he and Katie broke up. Katie was the best thing to happen to him in a very long time. She and I were going to see the Killers in May, but another band is going to be playing the same night that I want to see more... JIMMY EAT WORLD!!!!
Jenna - She is doing great! She spoke in church on Sunday. What a powerful person she has become.
Danielle - I saw her dance the Standard Medley for the UVSC Ballroom team the other night. She is very talented. I love her to death!!!
Karissa - She has proven to be as fickle as I suspected. I have stopped answering her calls, and I hope she does not show up at Tiffany's birthday party on wed. Argh... I'll tell you about it later.
That is really all the very important people to me right now. Wow that was a long post, I'll let you swallow this one before I post more...
This last weekend I went to a condo with Jenna and Jeff. I had so much fun being away for a few days. I played some games, lost a poker game to Jenna, played some Halo and watched one of my favorite Family Guy episodes, and found it very profane to my surprise. I guess now that I am becoming more concious of the media I watch or listen to I am more offended by it's content. I'm growing up... As a result of losing the poker game to Jenna I have to kiss someone new in the next month, or I will owe her $50. This is sort of a catch 22 situation for me, seeing as the only girl I am close enough with to actually kiss is Jenna, but whatev. So here begins my attempt to be a mouth slut again. *sigh* I think I can find sometone in that time. I thought I was done with being a man-whore.
I saw a really good film on Saturday as well. "Be Cool". It was really "cool"! I don't think I have been that entertained by a movie since "Death to Smoochy". Go figure that they are made by the same people. All in all life is really good. I can't wait to get back from Colorado though. This is sort of a question that I think about a lot, do you ever have an event happening that is so big that you can't see what is going to happen after that? I know when I get back I'm going to be plaing with my band, working on buying a new guitar, and getting into school, but I don't have a huge event to look forward to. I really want to go to Vegas soon, maybe I can start planning that and have something to look forward to.
So to catch you up on the current situatoins in my life here is a list of people that mean a lot to me, and an explination about how they are involved with me.
Rich - Well he is still getting married, I am excited for him, even though I don't know how to feel about his Fiance right now. She has done some things to make me queston her intentions in life. I hope Rich understands her and is really ready. I don't see him anymore, maybe for a few min at work, but that is it.
Bryan - I think he and Katie broke up. Katie was the best thing to happen to him in a very long time. She and I were going to see the Killers in May, but another band is going to be playing the same night that I want to see more... JIMMY EAT WORLD!!!!
Jenna - She is doing great! She spoke in church on Sunday. What a powerful person she has become.
Danielle - I saw her dance the Standard Medley for the UVSC Ballroom team the other night. She is very talented. I love her to death!!!
Karissa - She has proven to be as fickle as I suspected. I have stopped answering her calls, and I hope she does not show up at Tiffany's birthday party on wed. Argh... I'll tell you about it later.
That is really all the very important people to me right now. Wow that was a long post, I'll let you swallow this one before I post more...
I have had a long weekend, I'm not sure why I fell so gross. I had a really good day yesterday. I spent the day home sick from work. I have to make up the missed time, but I needed the extra day. I fell a lot better about things. Jenna and I went up to Mike and Darsi's house last night and played poker. I miss those people. I hope when I'm all growed up and marred that everyone around me can still be close. I don't think I want to move on with life if I can't be close to these people. Here is my new favorite song. I'm sorry to post lyrics again. I'll try something original next time. This song says so much about me. I have a new very large respect for Jimmy Eat World. They wrote this song. The proved to me that a Mormon can do what I want to do and still have morals. I want to be like them...
***
"23"
I felt for sure last night
That once we said goodbye
No one else will know these lonely dreams
No one else will know that part of me
I'm still driving away
And I'm sorry every day
I won't always love these selfish things
I won't always live...
Not stopping...
It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you
You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine
Amazing still it seems
I'll be 23
I won't always love what I'll never have
I won't always live in my regrets
You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine
You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine...
***
"23"
I felt for sure last night
That once we said goodbye
No one else will know these lonely dreams
No one else will know that part of me
I'm still driving away
And I'm sorry every day
I won't always love these selfish things
I won't always live...
Not stopping...
It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you
You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine
Amazing still it seems
I'll be 23
I won't always love what I'll never have
I won't always live in my regrets
You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine
You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine...
This song keeps running through my head today. I listened to it before I came to work, but I can't get it out of my head. The angst is setting in again, please stop...
***
I just remembered that time at the market
Snuck up behind me and jumped on my shopping cart
And rolled down aisle five
You looked behind you to smile back at me
Crashed into a rack full of magazines
They asked us if we could leave
I can’t remember what went wrong last september
Though I’m sure you’d remind me if you had to
Our love was comfortable and so broken in
I sleep with this new girl I’m still getting used to
My friends all approve,
Say she’s gonna be good for you
They throw me high fives
She says the Bible is all that she reads
And prefers that I not use profanity
Your mouth was so dirty
Life of the party and she swears that she’s artsy
But you could distinguish miles from coltrane
Our love was comfortable and so broken in
She’s perfect
So flawless
Or so they say
She thinks I can’t see the smile that she’s faking
And poses for pictures that aren’t being taken
I loved you
Grey sweatpants
No makeup
So perfect
Our love was comfortable and so broken in
She’s perfect
So flawless
I’m not impressed
I want you back
***
I just remembered that time at the market
Snuck up behind me and jumped on my shopping cart
And rolled down aisle five
You looked behind you to smile back at me
Crashed into a rack full of magazines
They asked us if we could leave
I can’t remember what went wrong last september
Though I’m sure you’d remind me if you had to
Our love was comfortable and so broken in
I sleep with this new girl I’m still getting used to
My friends all approve,
Say she’s gonna be good for you
They throw me high fives
She says the Bible is all that she reads
And prefers that I not use profanity
Your mouth was so dirty
Life of the party and she swears that she’s artsy
But you could distinguish miles from coltrane
Our love was comfortable and so broken in
She’s perfect
So flawless
Or so they say
She thinks I can’t see the smile that she’s faking
And poses for pictures that aren’t being taken
I loved you
Grey sweatpants
No makeup
So perfect
Our love was comfortable and so broken in
She’s perfect
So flawless
I’m not impressed
I want you back
I'm missing your bed
I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak,
And this bottle of beast
Is taking me home
I'm cuddling close
To blankets and sheets
But you're not alone, and you're not discreet
Make sure I know who's taking you home.
I'm reading your note over again
There's not a word that I comprehend,
Except when you signed it
"I will love you always and forever."
Well As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs
And sit alone and wonder
How you're making out
But as for me, I wish that I was anywhere with anyone
Making out.
I'm missing your laugh
How did it break?
And when did your eyes begin to look fake?
I hope you're as happy as you 're pretending.
I'm cuddling close
To blankets and sheets
I am alone
In my defeat I wish I knew you were safely at home
I'm missing your bed
I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have speak, and
This bottle of beast is taking me home.
Your hair, it's everywhere.
Screaming infidelities
And taking its wear.
***
So this is the only digital picture I can find of her. I think I'll replace it because of the oaf in the backround.
***NOTE: I took the picture off cause I can't stand looking at that bad picture of me ***
"Sooner or later, the songs that make you shake will be by me..."
I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak,
And this bottle of beast
Is taking me home
I'm cuddling close
To blankets and sheets
But you're not alone, and you're not discreet
Make sure I know who's taking you home.
I'm reading your note over again
There's not a word that I comprehend,
Except when you signed it
"I will love you always and forever."
Well As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs
And sit alone and wonder
How you're making out
But as for me, I wish that I was anywhere with anyone
Making out.
I'm missing your laugh
How did it break?
And when did your eyes begin to look fake?
I hope you're as happy as you 're pretending.
I'm cuddling close
To blankets and sheets
I am alone
In my defeat I wish I knew you were safely at home
I'm missing your bed
I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have speak, and
This bottle of beast is taking me home.
Your hair, it's everywhere.
Screaming infidelities
And taking its wear.
***
So this is the only digital picture I can find of her. I think I'll replace it because of the oaf in the backround.
***NOTE: I took the picture off cause I can't stand looking at that bad picture of me ***
"Sooner or later, the songs that make you shake will be by me..."
In whatever kind of way I was bored at work today.
This little guy is the logo for Dentrix 10.5. Man that product sucked. I had some fun in paint today. It was good. Oh yes it was good.
This little guy is the logo for Dentrix 10.5. Man that product sucked. I had some fun in paint today. It was good. Oh yes it was good.
Have you ever had a feeling like something new is about to happen? I have had that for the past week. It is weird cause it has another feeling sort of wraped up in it to. I think it is the kind of feeling you had on the last day of school before the summer began. It's almost here, but you're not sure what to expect from it. Something is almost here, I can feel it. My best friend is getting married in about 45 days, this is weird to me. I always knew this day would come when a close friend gets married. Amber already has, and I always knew that that would happen, but this is Rich. He was my first friend when I moved to Utah. The was there when Sarah and I broke up, and he was there when me and Karissa broke up. I can't put in words how much he means to me. He is having a hard time paying for his wedding. He is not getting much help from his fiance's parents, which is understandible, I don't think they are as well off as Rich's family is. They have had to make some cuts in the budget, and one has been where they will get married. They have decieded to get married in a church. I don't want them to do this, not that there is anything wrong with it, but I'm sure that neither of them had hoped their whole lives for it. I have deciede to help pay for a place for them to get married. I told Rich about it today, and I could see him fighting back the tears. I think if we weren't at work standing in the main lobby he would have actualy cried and gave me a hug. I realized that there is not much I wouldn't do for him and some of my other friends. I think God puts certain people in your path that will make a huge difference. I know there are people in my life now that I knew before this life. That is a cool feeling. I want to make some changes in my life, and they are so hard to make. I want to become active, but I don't feel comfortible dressing up for church, maybe if I had a suit I would be okay. I'll work on that. I don't want to be the one empty seat when we all meet again after this life is over. I want to have my friends and family forever. I want to love forever. I want a lot...
Kr5is
p.s. for thoes of you that know Rochelle (Rich's Fiance) please do not tell her about my offer.
Kr5is
p.s. for thoes of you that know Rochelle (Rich's Fiance) please do not tell her about my offer.
Which HomestarRunner.com Character Are You?
So I took a test to see Which HomestarRunner charicter I am. This is sad...
This is what I am going to name my band. I think we are going to change the name anyway. Someone told me that I have reached a "New Uphoria" yesterday, and it stuck. I love it. I hope the others do. I have had the worst week and a half of my life, but in the end it has all be worth it. I had to fix my truck, and have a root canal. Two things that are not fun. All togeather I have spent $700 on expenses. That is my whole paychek. Something really cool though is that I got a bonus at work today. An extra $150 never hurt anyone. The last two days have been really good too. I have found something really special in my life, and I feel good. I think it is a fitting way to end the CRAP! I have been really smiling, and I have noticed my friends really smiling. I think I saw for the first time in our friendship Jenna's real smile last night. I think it had something to do with the fact that her neice's are in town. I got to have my nephew sit with me for a while the other night too. They usually hate me. This is kind of a scattered post, but I feel good. I love you all.
Kr5istofer
Kr5istofer
