So yesterday was my birthday. It was the best birthday I have had since I turned 20. I just tuned 23 though. It has been 5 years since High School, and 2 years since a failed engagement. I'm still the same. Not closer to anything else. I have had my band. That is one thing that I have always wanted to have since I was a kid. So aside from being a year older this was a good birthday. I had a half day of work yesterday where I heard that my friend Gustavo had quit. In a blaze of glory from what I know. Jenna, Jeff, and Danielle came over and took me to get ice cream in the afternoon, and then best of all. Karissa came over. It was so good to see her and be friends again. She is so awsome, and from now on I am not upset or hurt. About everyone I know sent me a text message or called. Today I had rehearsal for my band. It was so good to play our songs again and not have a bad drummer behind us. Actually we didn't have a drummer at all, but that is okay. I think I have a good outlook on life for the first time in a long time. Well... I could use a good cuddle. I haven't had that pleasure for a long time. I used to be a cuddle slut. I miss thoes days. lol Anyway we are having a party tonight, so I had better go. I'll post again tonight.
Man this has got to be the most slow week of the year. I know that monday was supposedly national depressoin day. It's the one day of the year that is the most likely to be depressing. Monday wasn't bad for me. I have had a weird week though. Nothing extream, but just off. I have been very anti-socaial, and nothing seems to be fun right now. No good movies to go see. Nobody new to hang out with, just the same old. I want to have a get togeather for my birthday, but I'm not sure what to do. I think I'm getting sick. Every year about this time I get sick. Just in time for my birthday. I am looking forward to Saturday though. I have a date! Hell yeah! I can't wait. I hope it goes well. Anyway, when I have something interesting to say I will post again. Untill then...
Everybody Wang Chung!
Everybody Wang Chung!
This on is for you Danielle! She one the Guess the lyrics contest 2! She has earned a lot of respect. Cause that is all I have to give, and my eternal friendship. She requested to know my top 5 favorite albums of all time.
1 - Siamese Dream - Smashing Pumpkins
2 - Ænima - Tool
3 - O - Damien Rice
4 - ( ) - Sigùr Ròs
5 - Gravity - Our Lady Peace
There you have it. I encourage all of you to listen to these at least once. Tell me what you think of them.
*MWAH*
1 - Siamese Dream - Smashing Pumpkins
2 - Ænima - Tool
3 - O - Damien Rice
4 - ( ) - Sigùr Ròs
5 - Gravity - Our Lady Peace
There you have it. I encourage all of you to listen to these at least once. Tell me what you think of them.
*MWAH*
Why am I so cold? Nobody here to warm me. I know I tend to vent a lot on here, and complain too, but I need to get this out. I am overlooked everywhere I turn. Someone never stops to see me for me. What have I done or not done to put me where I am. Lonely, replaced. I know it is my own responsibility to look after me, but sometimes I want to be held. I saw The Phantom of The Opera tonight for the first time ever. It was such a beautiful film, not to mention story. I went with someone very dear to me tonight. Short of having my eyes poked out and my heart carved out this person has helped me feel every emotion possible. I'm not sure why I crave her attention so much. I know I will just be looked over. After the movie it was sort of a weird moment we had. She put in a CD that she made while we were dating. (That Sucked) As anyone who knows me or reads this blog can tell, music is my escape, my muse, my mixing can of emotions. As we were driving home listening to "our" songs, I realized she was thinking about someone else. That left me feeling two things, some sort of sick joy that is I can move on, and the other. Hurt. I have been replaced... Again...
It was about time according to Kristofer's break up calendar:
1) First you break up, then for about a month or two you find some strange desire to torture yourself by seeing this person, kissing, flirting, or whatever with them.
2) Then around 2 months post break up, one of you decide to be distant, leaving the other with a paper heart going "what?". That will continue for a bout another 2 months.
3) After that you have the ONE magical moment where you feel like you can renew this. Start over. Feel something more with this person.
4) Then one or the other says that they will not date you again... Ever... This sharade will continue for a week till you happen to speak to this person again.
5) Then we have a very brief repeat of the first phase. (Kissing, flirting, Whatever)
6) Followed by an immediate "met someone new".
That is the schedule by which all relationships in my life have followed. Holy crap! That is not cool! I'm always on the look out for the next "Mrs. Said-I-Loved-Kristofer-But-Really-Used-His-Heart-As-A-Crutch-To-Make-Myself-Feel-Better" That is the end of my rant. Now that this post had become as long as 5 of my other posts I think I'll go to bed. Thanks for listening... You're such a good friend, Computer.
It was about time according to Kristofer's break up calendar:
1) First you break up, then for about a month or two you find some strange desire to torture yourself by seeing this person, kissing, flirting, or whatever with them.
2) Then around 2 months post break up, one of you decide to be distant, leaving the other with a paper heart going "what?". That will continue for a bout another 2 months.
3) After that you have the ONE magical moment where you feel like you can renew this. Start over. Feel something more with this person.
4) Then one or the other says that they will not date you again... Ever... This sharade will continue for a week till you happen to speak to this person again.
5) Then we have a very brief repeat of the first phase. (Kissing, flirting, Whatever)
6) Followed by an immediate "met someone new".
That is the schedule by which all relationships in my life have followed. Holy crap! That is not cool! I'm always on the look out for the next "Mrs. Said-I-Loved-Kristofer-But-Really-Used-His-Heart-As-A-Crutch-To-Make-Myself-Feel-Better" That is the end of my rant. Now that this post had become as long as 5 of my other posts I think I'll go to bed. Thanks for listening... You're such a good friend, Computer.
So I have been listening to a band called "The Mars Volta" lately. I downloaded their music last night. They come on high recommendation from a lot of people that I respect as far as music goes.
I have found on song that everyone should listen to once. Warning it is a little weird, but I like it.
Televators - The Mars Volta
Please take the time and listen to it. It's cool.
So today was a normal day. Not much new happened. I'm going to be going to Colorado twice in 3 weeks coming up. I can't wait. I think I might start a countdown till Colorado on here. It will be fun.
So I haven't had any thoughts on who the previous song that I posted is. I'll have to start dropping hints. Here is the first one. The album the song comes from is called "Ænima". It is one of my top five favorite albums of all time. I will list them after someone can guess the song.
As for life, it is really good. I have a date on Saturday with a girl named Kelly from Salt Lake. She plays in a band too, and she is the lead guitarist. I might just have to marry this girl. lol Not really, I promise to know her favorite color, and have a long relationship before I do that again.
Which brings me to another point in my life. I was engaged once before. It was really hard to leave that relationship, but I'm finding the hardest thing is to tell people that I was once engaged. I feel like I am judged for having failed once. I have decided on a new requirement for a relationship to become an engagement. "Four Seasons & A Road Trip" I have to have dated for at least 4 seasons, and gone on one road trip before I pop the question... Again... I think this will give me an opportunity to get the know the person on an emotional level, and have them in real situations before I decide to be with them forever. Does anyone have any thoughts? Basically I am fishing for comments. They make me feel cool.
Well time for bed...
Rock On!
I have found on song that everyone should listen to once. Warning it is a little weird, but I like it.
Televators - The Mars Volta
Please take the time and listen to it. It's cool.
So today was a normal day. Not much new happened. I'm going to be going to Colorado twice in 3 weeks coming up. I can't wait. I think I might start a countdown till Colorado on here. It will be fun.
So I haven't had any thoughts on who the previous song that I posted is. I'll have to start dropping hints. Here is the first one. The album the song comes from is called "Ænima". It is one of my top five favorite albums of all time. I will list them after someone can guess the song.
As for life, it is really good. I have a date on Saturday with a girl named Kelly from Salt Lake. She plays in a band too, and she is the lead guitarist. I might just have to marry this girl. lol Not really, I promise to know her favorite color, and have a long relationship before I do that again.
Which brings me to another point in my life. I was engaged once before. It was really hard to leave that relationship, but I'm finding the hardest thing is to tell people that I was once engaged. I feel like I am judged for having failed once. I have decided on a new requirement for a relationship to become an engagement. "Four Seasons & A Road Trip" I have to have dated for at least 4 seasons, and gone on one road trip before I pop the question... Again... I think this will give me an opportunity to get the know the person on an emotional level, and have them in real situations before I decide to be with them forever. Does anyone have any thoughts? Basically I am fishing for comments. They make me feel cool.
Well time for bed...
Rock On!
Sundays are so BORING! There is nothing to do here in this city on a Sunday. The whole town closes down. Nobody on the street and the only thing open is Wal-mart. Holy Crap! I can't take this anymore. I'm someone that is not easily entertained, at least for cheap. I like things that cost money. Most likely because anything that is cool to do someone has managed to put their finger in it, and earn some money off it.
I played Halo all morning, after playing it all night. XBOX live is so freaking cool! I love playing other people from all over the world. It is cool. So that is the surface, as for what is happening in my life now, that is a novel.
A friend of mine and I had arranged (If she could) to go see a movie tonight. I knew from the moment that we made plans I was going to get a phone call late Sunday night, where she was going to tell me that she was sorry. Sure enough like clockwork she did. I have come to expect this. I did have fun tonight though chilling with Jenna and Danielle, I have been hanging out with them a lot lately. One of Jenna's friends Trevor came home from his LDS Mission, and we have been hanging out a lot. I really like him. We have become very good friends. I think he considers me a good friend, too.
I'm so ready to burst. I have a lot of projects going on right now, and so much emotional baggage. I need a break, or a breath of fresh air. Jenna and I are planning on going to Colorado in March to help her sister's family move in to their new house. I can't wait. It will be good to go and not have to worry about things for a few days. Funny thing is I will be going back a few weeks later for my Grandpa's wedding. I think this is going to be a good year of trips. I want to go everywhere.
I have decided to learn another song. Jenna showed me a Ben Harper cover of "In Your Eyes" from Peter Gabriel. I'm going to learn it and then perform it for everyone! I'll let you know how it goes. If you have time, you should find the song and check it out.
I leave you with another lyrical challenge, name the band and song for five points. You can google it if you want, buy you will have to post what you think of it, and what you got from it for credit :-p
***
Something has to change.
Un-deniable dilemma.
Boredom's not a burden Anyone should bear.
Constant over stimu-lation numbs me
and I wouldn't have It any other way.
It's not enough. I need more.
Nothing seems to satisfy.
I don't want it. I just need it.
To feel, to breathe, to know I'm alive.
Finger deep within the borderline.
Show me that you love me and that we belong together.
Relax, turn around and take my hand.
I can help you change
Tired moments into pleasure.
Say the word and we'll be Well upon our way.
Blend and balance Pain and comfort Deep within you
Till you will not have me any other way.
It's not enough. I need more.
Nothing seems to satisfy.
I don't want it. I just need it.
To feel, to breathe, to know I'm alive.
Knuckle deep inside the borderline.
This may hurt a little but it's something you'll get used to.
Relax. Slip away.
Something kinda sad about the way that things have come to be.
Desensitized to everything. What became of subtlety?
How can it mean anything to me
If I really don't feel anything at all?
I'll keep digging
till I feel something.
Elbow deep inside the borderline.
Show me that you love me and that we belong together.
Shoulder deep within the borderline. Relax. Turn around and take my hand.
***
I played Halo all morning, after playing it all night. XBOX live is so freaking cool! I love playing other people from all over the world. It is cool. So that is the surface, as for what is happening in my life now, that is a novel.
A friend of mine and I had arranged (If she could) to go see a movie tonight. I knew from the moment that we made plans I was going to get a phone call late Sunday night, where she was going to tell me that she was sorry. Sure enough like clockwork she did. I have come to expect this. I did have fun tonight though chilling with Jenna and Danielle, I have been hanging out with them a lot lately. One of Jenna's friends Trevor came home from his LDS Mission, and we have been hanging out a lot. I really like him. We have become very good friends. I think he considers me a good friend, too.
I'm so ready to burst. I have a lot of projects going on right now, and so much emotional baggage. I need a break, or a breath of fresh air. Jenna and I are planning on going to Colorado in March to help her sister's family move in to their new house. I can't wait. It will be good to go and not have to worry about things for a few days. Funny thing is I will be going back a few weeks later for my Grandpa's wedding. I think this is going to be a good year of trips. I want to go everywhere.
I have decided to learn another song. Jenna showed me a Ben Harper cover of "In Your Eyes" from Peter Gabriel. I'm going to learn it and then perform it for everyone! I'll let you know how it goes. If you have time, you should find the song and check it out.
I leave you with another lyrical challenge, name the band and song for five points. You can google it if you want, buy you will have to post what you think of it, and what you got from it for credit :-p
***
Something has to change.
Un-deniable dilemma.
Boredom's not a burden Anyone should bear.
Constant over stimu-lation numbs me
and I wouldn't have It any other way.
It's not enough. I need more.
Nothing seems to satisfy.
I don't want it. I just need it.
To feel, to breathe, to know I'm alive.
Finger deep within the borderline.
Show me that you love me and that we belong together.
Relax, turn around and take my hand.
I can help you change
Tired moments into pleasure.
Say the word and we'll be Well upon our way.
Blend and balance Pain and comfort Deep within you
Till you will not have me any other way.
It's not enough. I need more.
Nothing seems to satisfy.
I don't want it. I just need it.
To feel, to breathe, to know I'm alive.
Knuckle deep inside the borderline.
This may hurt a little but it's something you'll get used to.
Relax. Slip away.
Something kinda sad about the way that things have come to be.
Desensitized to everything. What became of subtlety?
How can it mean anything to me
If I really don't feel anything at all?
I'll keep digging
till I feel something.
Elbow deep inside the borderline.
Show me that you love me and that we belong together.
Shoulder deep within the borderline. Relax. Turn around and take my hand.
***
The last few days have been weird, but fun. I had a dream last night that I moved to Colorado. Not exactly what I wanted to dream about. Every time I do I get a stronger feeling to move there. I just agreed to pay rent on a storage unit with the guys I play music with. I really want the music project to take off. I hope to build a studio soon. I found the computer I want. Check it out:
http://www.apple.com/macmini
I think I might buy it for my birthday. That would be fun. I never thought I would buy a Mac. Whatev...
We might have found a drummer, he just needs to buy a set. He used to play with Steve (lead singer) in high school. I'm excited to play agian.
So I am going to add a new name to the "Kristofer Dictionary",
RICH - This man is my hero. Rich and I have been friends for 11 years now. He was my first friend in Utah when my family moved here. He is going to be getting married in a few months. I'm very happy for him cause I know this is what he wants. On the other hand I am sad to see someone so close change so much and leave my life. I know that's not what it really is, but it feels like it. He has done so much for me in my life I will never be able to repay him. Have you heard the Foo Fighters song called "My Hero"? In my life that song is about him. I was singing it all night tonight. Jenna and I are going to learn it, and I can't wait.
I hope to start posting some pics soon. that way you can all see who I am, and what I do. I think I do this for my own sanity. It helps me to write like this....
http://www.apple.com/macmini
I think I might buy it for my birthday. That would be fun. I never thought I would buy a Mac. Whatev...
We might have found a drummer, he just needs to buy a set. He used to play with Steve (lead singer) in high school. I'm excited to play agian.
So I am going to add a new name to the "Kristofer Dictionary",
RICH - This man is my hero. Rich and I have been friends for 11 years now. He was my first friend in Utah when my family moved here. He is going to be getting married in a few months. I'm very happy for him cause I know this is what he wants. On the other hand I am sad to see someone so close change so much and leave my life. I know that's not what it really is, but it feels like it. He has done so much for me in my life I will never be able to repay him. Have you heard the Foo Fighters song called "My Hero"? In my life that song is about him. I was singing it all night tonight. Jenna and I are going to learn it, and I can't wait.
I hope to start posting some pics soon. that way you can all see who I am, and what I do. I think I do this for my own sanity. It helps me to write like this....
So today was a little laid back. I took the morning off work, and slept for most of it. I'm not sure why I feel so out of things but I do. I have found myself really missing playing aggressive music. I watched "School of Rock" tonight with some friends. This may sound lame, but it motivated me to start playing music more my style again. I miss playing at the local clubs, and feeling so energized. I last played a show in October. To Long ago if you ask me. I have been writing a lot of music, but not something that I could really use with the band. I guess I'm not pissed off enough. I think if I can play on my electric tomorrow, and be ignored by a stupid girl again, (Karissa) it would help.
I listened to one of my favorite songs today from Our Lady Peace:
***
"Happiness & The Fish"
I confess
Everyone is overweight
And I'm obsessed
Talking is just masturbating
Without the mess
Addiction leaves you sad today & unimpressed
I can't remember all the names
Everyone you meet today
Is just so fucking vain
Bored again by happiness
All those friends I've (die) lost in there
I'm upset
Happiness is not a fish
That you can catch
Imagination can't resist
The laziness
That pins you down, get on your knees
Everyone you meet today
Is feeling useless & ashamed
***
"Everyone you meet today is just so fucking vain"
I couldn't put it any better. In the last few weeks I have made some friends that are exceptions to that line, but everyone else I have met fits right in.
I want to leave sometimes, move back to Colorado, or buy a one way ticket to New York, and try and survive. I know I can't do that. It would hurt to much to leave. I have so many loved ones here. If I left them I would wither away. My family might miss me, but I don't think I would miss them to much. Aubrey, Zack, and Dad excluded. I want to go somewhere where nobody knows me, and I can start fresh, and be someone interesting, someone that is desired.
I would have to leave my job, my band, my friends. These are so precious to me, but something is missing. I'm tired of trying to live up to someone's standards. I want to be me, and be loved for it.
To all my friends that are reading this know that I love you all! I'm just tired of the misfit feelings. Maybe that will be the name of my new song. Misfit Feelings
I listened to one of my favorite songs today from Our Lady Peace:
***
"Happiness & The Fish"
I confess
Everyone is overweight
And I'm obsessed
Talking is just masturbating
Without the mess
Addiction leaves you sad today & unimpressed
I can't remember all the names
Everyone you meet today
Is just so fucking vain
Bored again by happiness
All those friends I've (die) lost in there
I'm upset
Happiness is not a fish
That you can catch
Imagination can't resist
The laziness
That pins you down, get on your knees
Everyone you meet today
Is feeling useless & ashamed
***
"Everyone you meet today is just so fucking vain"
I couldn't put it any better. In the last few weeks I have made some friends that are exceptions to that line, but everyone else I have met fits right in.
I want to leave sometimes, move back to Colorado, or buy a one way ticket to New York, and try and survive. I know I can't do that. It would hurt to much to leave. I have so many loved ones here. If I left them I would wither away. My family might miss me, but I don't think I would miss them to much. Aubrey, Zack, and Dad excluded. I want to go somewhere where nobody knows me, and I can start fresh, and be someone interesting, someone that is desired.
I would have to leave my job, my band, my friends. These are so precious to me, but something is missing. I'm tired of trying to live up to someone's standards. I want to be me, and be loved for it.
To all my friends that are reading this know that I love you all! I'm just tired of the misfit feelings. Maybe that will be the name of my new song. Misfit Feelings
So I just won a poker game. 50 Bucks! I played for 4 hours. so I made 12 dollars an hour. If I could do that all the time then it would be a profession. Hell Yeah! So i really like poker, so much that it sometimes becomes bad for me to play. I would say in the last year I have lost 100 dollars playing poker. That isn't bad, and I know it could be a lot worse, but it's still 100 dollars. That's a 1 way ticket to New York, or 4 tanks of gas. Man!
Speaking of addiction, I came across this pic on the web yesterday:
At first I was almost sick, then I couldn't stop thinking about it. I emailed it to my friend Rich, whom I live and work with. He said that it brought to mind an addict that could no longer use their arms, legs or anything to inject the drug.
This makes since to me. I find the picture in some way beautiful. I know you are tinking "Creepy" but think about it. Post you oppinions in the Comment section. I welcome them all.
Also Holly is a real cool girl! Check out her blog:
trueprudency.blogspot.com
She is way cool, and one of my favorite people. Lots of love for Holly!
Also Danielle is a way amazing chick that should be on everyones must call list:
toasttolife.blogspot.com
Go say hi to her. I will try and add all my friends blogs to my friend list. I'll even post a link to it whenever I say their name. So yeah...
Thats all for now...
NOTE **** Gustavo won the guess the lyrics contest, well sort of contest ****
He Googled the Lyrics. But he likes the song. Jenna came in close second, but I think that is all the people that actually look at my blog. lol Well you two "ROCK!"
Speaking of addiction, I came across this pic on the web yesterday:
At first I was almost sick, then I couldn't stop thinking about it. I emailed it to my friend Rich, whom I live and work with. He said that it brought to mind an addict that could no longer use their arms, legs or anything to inject the drug.
This makes since to me. I find the picture in some way beautiful. I know you are tinking "Creepy" but think about it. Post you oppinions in the Comment section. I welcome them all.
Also Holly is a real cool girl! Check out her blog:
trueprudency.blogspot.com
She is way cool, and one of my favorite people. Lots of love for Holly!
Also Danielle is a way amazing chick that should be on everyones must call list:
toasttolife.blogspot.com
Go say hi to her. I will try and add all my friends blogs to my friend list. I'll even post a link to it whenever I say their name. So yeah...
Thats all for now...
NOTE **** Gustavo won the guess the lyrics contest, well sort of contest ****
He Googled the Lyrics. But he likes the song. Jenna came in close second, but I think that is all the people that actually look at my blog. lol Well you two "ROCK!"
So I was brave enough to let everyone I know have my blog address. Holy Crap, is that scary. I gave it to my good fried Gustavo. He has posted some comments on my posts. Thanks for the support man. Check out his blog:
goose77.blogspot.com
Also check out my firend Jenna's blog:
waxphilosophical.blogspot.com
She is good with a camera, and you may find a few photo's of me on her site every once in a while.
As I have been reading through my friends blogs I got a lot of inspiration. I think Gus is going through the most right now. I hopw he can cope. He is changing his life, for the better I think. In his example, and on the encouragement of others around me I went to my church meetings today for the first time in a long time. Kinda wierd. It was more wierd cause I had changed my hair color this weekend, and everyone didn't recognize me.
I think I need to begin giving you a backround on who I am, and where I come from, and expecially the people that effect my life.
KARISSA- What to say. This is my last girlfriend. I can't even begin to say how much love I have for her. She is amazing, and I really felt it back. For reasons out of my control we had to end our relatoinship. It was hard. She kept saying that she loved me, and missed me, but she never made time to see me, and always had an excuse to go home. I know she is busy, but she always has time to see her new "friends", if you can call them that. From what I hear they are really shallow, and a bunch of Ass Holes. Guys that use her, and then kick her away. I hope she is happy. I hope she finds what she is looking for in life, but most of all I hope she comes clean with how she feels about me. She recently told me that we will never get back togeather. 2 things wrong with that. I don't believe in "never", and she would not look at me when she said it. I know she didn't mean it. Whatev... You'll probibly hear more about her later.
As for the rest of the people in my life, it will have to wait for another day. Thanks for reading my blog.
goose77.blogspot.com
Also check out my firend Jenna's blog:
waxphilosophical.blogspot.com
She is good with a camera, and you may find a few photo's of me on her site every once in a while.
As I have been reading through my friends blogs I got a lot of inspiration. I think Gus is going through the most right now. I hopw he can cope. He is changing his life, for the better I think. In his example, and on the encouragement of others around me I went to my church meetings today for the first time in a long time. Kinda wierd. It was more wierd cause I had changed my hair color this weekend, and everyone didn't recognize me.
I think I need to begin giving you a backround on who I am, and where I come from, and expecially the people that effect my life.
KARISSA- What to say. This is my last girlfriend. I can't even begin to say how much love I have for her. She is amazing, and I really felt it back. For reasons out of my control we had to end our relatoinship. It was hard. She kept saying that she loved me, and missed me, but she never made time to see me, and always had an excuse to go home. I know she is busy, but she always has time to see her new "friends", if you can call them that. From what I hear they are really shallow, and a bunch of Ass Holes. Guys that use her, and then kick her away. I hope she is happy. I hope she finds what she is looking for in life, but most of all I hope she comes clean with how she feels about me. She recently told me that we will never get back togeather. 2 things wrong with that. I don't believe in "never", and she would not look at me when she said it. I know she didn't mean it. Whatev... You'll probibly hear more about her later.
As for the rest of the people in my life, it will have to wait for another day. Thanks for reading my blog.
I feel so out of it right now. My life feels like marathon, that will never end. Running around the same course over and over again. I have never liked repetition in any form. I work, play and sleep. Usually just work and sleep during the week. Is this what life will be like forever? I hope not. Every once in a while I get a random glimmer of random events. When I play in my band or write a new song I feel new again, but only for a short time. I need to play with them more often. Anybody know a GOOD drummer? Our last one was great, but he had a lot of baggage, not to mention the fact that he didn't like our songs. "To pop" I think was the term. Whatever I enjoy them. If you want to hear what we are working on go to this link.
http://www.purevolume.com/buttholechewies
Never mind the name of the band on the link. Our actual band name Valence (as seen above) was already used on the web site. The song you hear on that link is the first I wrote after a bad breakup a few years ago. Let me know what you think. Anyone can post a comment, just let me know who you are. No I'm not singing, that is my friend Steve, and yes he is single... I think.
Wow I all of a sudden feel like a Label Rep, pushing a new band. LOL anyway. Please take care.
http://www.purevolume.com/buttholechewies
Never mind the name of the band on the link. Our actual band name Valence (as seen above) was already used on the web site. The song you hear on that link is the first I wrote after a bad breakup a few years ago. Let me know what you think. Anyone can post a comment, just let me know who you are. No I'm not singing, that is my friend Steve, and yes he is single... I think.
Wow I all of a sudden feel like a Label Rep, pushing a new band. LOL anyway. Please take care.
I have had an interesting few weeks. My emo heart is all strung out. I have had 3 people whom I love choose to be with someone else. That's fine if they choose this, but it all happened in the SAME WEEK. I'm going mad. I'm not sure how to heal, or cope. I tried to bury myself in music, but that only allows the emotions to scar. I found a lot of pleasure in a song that was shown to me by a good friend:
***
Take this for what it's worth
This song, my smile
Now take this for what it's worth
This song, my smile
Smile
I write to you from hell my song, leaving the foot against the gas
And the wall that must have said your name
Weaken me, for nothing you can say can stop this now
Would a noose replace his lips?
(Would a noose replace)
Can a song replace a broken heart?
Now can a song replace broken love?
No
On the beach, I remind myself
That holding hands is so powerless
Tonight, I don't even have the stars
To hold onto
(To hold onto)
Paint
Paint this red
Paint this red
Yeah, paint this red
Paint
I'll paint this red
I'll paint this red
Paint this red
Her picture will remain unbroken, she cries tonight,
"I fall in love"
(I fall in love)
Wipe each tear away
With sandpaper
Tonight, I'm not alone
And I just wanna get your fucking voice out of my head
Can a song replace a broken heart?
Now can a song replace broken love?
No
Fall within the paint
Won't you fall within the break?
Why won't you fall?
Why won't you fall
On the paint?
On the beach, I remind myself
That holding hands is so powerless
Tonight, I don't even have the stars
To hold onto
(To hold onto)
Can a song replace broken love?
Now can a song replace a broken heart?
No
No
No
No
***
If you can tell me the band and song you get 5 points, and my respect. I owe a lot to a few people in my life, but they are all leaving now. I fear that I will soon be alone. Trapt behind all my fears, holding a broken heart, and a shoebox full of memories. I think I will try being vague for a while till I warm up to the idea of posting my life online. I think I will try and post every day, but it will more than likely end up being a week at a time. Stay who you are. Whoever you are.
***
Take this for what it's worth
This song, my smile
Now take this for what it's worth
This song, my smile
Smile
I write to you from hell my song, leaving the foot against the gas
And the wall that must have said your name
Weaken me, for nothing you can say can stop this now
Would a noose replace his lips?
(Would a noose replace)
Can a song replace a broken heart?
Now can a song replace broken love?
No
On the beach, I remind myself
That holding hands is so powerless
Tonight, I don't even have the stars
To hold onto
(To hold onto)
Paint
Paint this red
Paint this red
Yeah, paint this red
Paint
I'll paint this red
I'll paint this red
Paint this red
Her picture will remain unbroken, she cries tonight,
"I fall in love"
(I fall in love)
Wipe each tear away
With sandpaper
Tonight, I'm not alone
And I just wanna get your fucking voice out of my head
Can a song replace a broken heart?
Now can a song replace broken love?
No
Fall within the paint
Won't you fall within the break?
Why won't you fall?
Why won't you fall
On the paint?
On the beach, I remind myself
That holding hands is so powerless
Tonight, I don't even have the stars
To hold onto
(To hold onto)
Can a song replace broken love?
Now can a song replace a broken heart?
No
No
No
No
***
If you can tell me the band and song you get 5 points, and my respect. I owe a lot to a few people in my life, but they are all leaving now. I fear that I will soon be alone. Trapt behind all my fears, holding a broken heart, and a shoebox full of memories. I think I will try being vague for a while till I warm up to the idea of posting my life online. I think I will try and post every day, but it will more than likely end up being a week at a time. Stay who you are. Whoever you are.
Welcome to my life...
My name is Kristofer, I am from Utah, and I'm not sure where I am going. I'm Almost 23, I will be on the 28th of this month. Nothing really big happening in my life right now, so I'm going to get this blog started!
I'll see you later.
My name is Kristofer, I am from Utah, and I'm not sure where I am going. I'm Almost 23, I will be on the 28th of this month. Nothing really big happening in my life right now, so I'm going to get this blog started!
I'll see you later.
